Wednesday, February 20, 2008

ReEntry

Today was Ty's first time back to school since October 2006 (when the whole chemo saga began). He has been receiving school services at home during a lot of that time, but it's just not the same atmosphere here. We were there for 90 minutes, and it seemed to go really well.

It felt like he remembered the Art room and his teacher, he was so at home in there he nearly fell asleep. I think it will take some adjustment time for one of his classmates who doesn't particularly like change. But! He has put his toe back in the waters of junior high and it's okay; the world did not stop turning, my heart did not stop beating. It is going to be okay.

Ty has been my constant 24/7 companion these past 16 months and I've become very accustomed to having him with me. It almost feels like sending him to school for the first time all over again. It is not that I don't have any confidence in his teacher or intervener (because they are wonderful), but mostly that I am feeling the pain of losing his company. I've pretty well been basking in the glow of his spirit, and I'm going to miss having it all to myself.

Sharing is hard.

10 comments:

Tirzah said...

That's great! I hope it continues to go well!

I'm sorry you feel sad at the same time.

compulsive writer said...

I love this post--thank you for sharing so honestly. I wish you both the best with this transition!

Summer said...

Sorry you're missing your boy.

Elizabeth-W said...

I thought maybe in the previous post you were gonna announce that Graciebaby was gonna lose her status as baby of the fam.
Hoping it goes well for you and Ty:)

Corrie said...

thx everybody - if Gracie lost her baby status, the post would've been titled Baby Insanity, because I would have to be nuts to try that again...

Cocoa said...

Sharing is hard for me too. Especially when it's something I so enjoy. Hope the transition for both of you goes well.

John-Michael said...

Having spent every week-day with Matt (my now-34 year-old son with CP) for 9 years ... doing the therapies, evaluations, doctors, YMCA, coffee shops and restaurants (instilling social awareness and skills ... then, now not being able to even see him ... well, you struck a chord.

The heart and prayers of another parent are now with you.

Corrie said...

cocoa - it seems Ty has already adjusted, which somehow makes it easier for me to send him.

john-michael - I think you truly know where I'm coming from, but I guess one consolation is that I'm spreading the joy by sharing him.

claire said...

I just caught up on a lot from your life...what a wondeful blog! I laughed, I cried, I spent much too much time on it-I just couldn't stop reading! Thank you fr sharing the feelings of your heart. It was healing to read of ALL your emotions, not just the warm and fuzzy ones. BTW didn't know about your cancer experience at all. I was just barely getting to know you...
Thanks for this glimpse into your life,
Claire
And boy does my blog seem simple now! :)

Corrie said...

Claire - so nice of you to stop by and leave your sweet comments. I guess I don't know any other way to write. Sometimes I wish I had a filter.